i don't know what i feel, random, confused.
and you always the reason of that

yeah, you think you aren't the one for me, but i think you are the one who make me in love
absolutely, just you muhammad iqbal naufal
i get confused to say that, you always make your mind think negative, if you know that i just love with you
how much a sacrifice which i make for you? just for you
you make my world very complicated, but i am happy for you beside me.
i just want you beside me all the time, i need you.
i always find you if you know, i am not the same as you think.

sometimes, i need you beside me and smile for me
and i want hear that you say 'i love you' 'you save in here' 'i will beside you anytime'
i need you, exactly because you like my drugs

aku memang sering di katakan 'bodoh' tapi lebih bodoh lagi jika aku merelakan kesempatan ku bersama dia kan? aku hanya manusia biasa, yang memang bodoh dan pantas untuk dikatakan bodoh karena aku hanya berharap suatu rasa nyaman,senang ketika aku bersama dia.

to be honest

jujur, aku bingung milih kamu apa meeting
kalian dua kehidupan yang berbeda, tapi kalian satu2nya orang yang tak punya
keluarga? aku ngerasa nggak ada keluarga
anggep aja kehidupan ku 100% , 70%nya tuh keluarga , 20%nya tuh meeting , 10%nya tuh kamu, aku udah kehilangan 70%nya, aku nggak mau kehilangan 30%nya sedikitpun
temen ku nggak suka kamu, kamu? nggak bisa jaga perasaan temen ku, kamu? selalu salah dimata temen ku, aku? nggak ada yg dukung aku buat semangat disaat aku ada masalah sama kamu, aku jalan sendiri membedakan 20% dan 10% dengan hati2 dan berharap itu nggak akan berkurang sedikitpun .
aku? aku selalu salah dimata kalian, ketika saatnya aku pingin jalan sama temen, kamu malah bilang aku 'ninggal' kamu begitu juga sebaliknya.
semua sama2 egois dan terbiasa aku dengan mereka, tapi mereka cuma nggak mengerti perasaan ku saat temen ku bilang 'putus aja', nggak bisa aku ungkapin rasanya, aku bener2 nggak mau kehilangan 30%nya, aku butuh mereka.
bukan hanya teman , tapi juga kamu, berharap suatu hari nanti ada yang ngalah dan semuanya bakalan jadi indah buat aku, amin.

kamu pernah nggak ngerasa apa yang kamu omongin semua itu bullshit ? aku pernah
aku bukan kayak yg kamu kenal, jauh berbeda dari yg kamu kenal haha

kamu tau nggak apa yg harus aku omongin ke kamu ? aku nggak tau
aku ngerasa aku bakal berubah, kamu juga bakal berubah, aku yakin kita bisa berubah
tapi ada satu hal yang berubah juga dari aku sama kamu
aku nggak tau apa, aku cuma masih sayang banget sama kamu, aku masih belum bisa kehilangan kamu lagi

now

now we get back, we get a relationship again . if you be my self in my position do you want do this same like me ? i think you don't.
i give you a chance, don't make it hurt again.
if you do this for me again, i don't know how must i do for you -______-''
it's your last chance : )

yap

yesterday, i know that you cut me, it seems like a doomsday for me
yap muhammad iqbal naufal you make me dissapointed of you, why you do this to me?
you don't know how much i am still in love with you at that time.
but now, if you ask me 'masih gak percaya sama aku ta?' i want so say for my deeply heart 'i don't know my feel again , it's very random , you cut me, you make me fly again and we get a relationship again , i don't know why i am not believe in you again, it so hurt if you my feel right now. i am tired to care of you, tired to be the best for you . but you just throw me to a trash? and you got me back, i don't know why you do this , maybe i will give you a suggest if you want to be with me you couldn't to be a childist. i am different of them. i am roikhana farista dewira who don't care anything if i still in love with you eventhough this situation make me feel that i must cut with you, but i still want to be with you . because i love you. some reason , or some problem . it doesn't matter for me because i need you , i love you